The following poem, written to the meter of  ‘Twas the Night Before Christmas, was written by my husband, Andrew R. Backus.

For those who do not know us, it is the story of our lives – the circumstances under which we met, fell in love, and were married. Some may think the timing, circumstances and place where we were married a little odd, but we believe that the hand of God was leading and guiding us and put each of us in the right place at the right time. And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8: 28)

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Robert before his illness

Important Facts:

  • Andy’s first wife Dee passed away on Aug. 25, 2013 of Glioblastoma Multiforme (GBM) Grade 4 Brain Cancer – a form of Brain Cancer that is always terminal.
  • My first husband Bob Pocza passed away on Feb. 2, 2016 of a blood disease called Myelodysplastic Syndrome after an almost 4 year illness. I was now a widow.
  • On April 18, 2016 My son Robert Pocza was diagnosed with Glioblastoma Multiforme (GBM) Grade 4 brain cancer, the same type of cancer that Dee had. Being a new widow, I moved from my home in Michigan to Wisconsin to live with and help my son, who lived in the Milwaukee area. He passed away on April 6, 2017.
  • Our story is bittersweet, but in all circumstances we know that God is good and does what is best for his children.

Christmas 2017/Epiphany 2018


 Merry Christmas to one, Merry Christmas to all!

And this Christ is named Jesus, as you may recall.

He’s the One God had promised right after the Fall.

He came into our world as a baby so small.

God and man in one person, He paid for all sin,

And He opened up heaven so all may go in.


With this letter we greet you, this man and this wife,

As we share with you things going on in our life:


‘Twas about this time last year that something was brewing,

And in a few months there will be vows renewing!

For you see, there’s a God and He knows what He’s doing.


It was May 22nd of Twenty-Sixteen

That a man and his mother in my church I’d seen –

A new widow from Michigan here for her son

Who had a brain tumor, the same kind of one

That somehow had happened to Dee my late wife –

The kind that ends up with the ending of life.


I offered support to this mom and her son,

For we know that with Jesus all battles are won.

The time went by quickly as we grew together

And they worked through medicines, red tape and weather.


The cancer progressed with its ups and its downs,

While Chris and her son dealt with smiles and with frowns.

In the meantime, my role was to offer support

 As we helped her son Rob who was such a good sport.


But something was happening, to our surprise;

We began seeing love as we looked in our eyes.


Robert noticed it too and began to remind us

That perhaps we should leave being single behind us.


Well, believe it or not, that’s exactly the thing

That transpired, and suddenly Chris had a ring!


Robert tearfully told her it would make him smile

If he with his mother could walk down the aisle.


So we planned and we plotted as fast as we could,

But that doggoned old cancer was up to no good.

Robert moved to a place, Zilber Hospice by name,

Where my wife Dee had been; it was one and the same!

So with God’s guiding hand and beside her son’s bed,

Christine Pocza and Andrew R. Backus – were wed!


Now believe me, the story continues from here;

For the next day we saw Robert’s end drawing near –

The end that without faith in Christ some would fear.

Chris’ son now went home to his Savior so dear.


In church we our vows reaffirmed on May six,

With God’s Word, prayer and song a big part of the mix.

The service by Pastor B. Adams was led;

Robert’s memory made known by a rose that was red.

Sarah Kuerth played the organ, Don Buch us addressed;

With song “You Gift of God” by Chris D. we were blessed.


Since then Chris and I have begun married life

And are making a home as a husband and wife.

We live in the same place as I did before,

And Chris’ sister Barb’s at Clare Meadows next door.

I still do many things such as I used to do,

But a dog, fish and birds are some things that are new!


I would be remiss if I failed to mention –

And bragging and boasting are not my intention –

That my grandchildren now number twenty and eight! *

Steve and Heather bore Theo – last June was the date!

I baptized little Theo at Bash – I was blessed!

And our family still knows “Backus Bash” is the best!

(*Just in case you are wond’ring “What else will he say?”

I can tell you that there is one more on the way!)


We have seen some things change and some things stay the same,

Yet in all of life’s changes, sin’s shame is our claim.

That’s why God sent His Son who is Jesus by Name;

He redeemed us poor sinners, and that’s why He came.

Happy Epiphany from the Backuses!

Andy & Chris, May 6, 2017






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One Way


I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. (John 11:25)

Are you one of the many people who feel it doesn’t matter who your god is as long as you believe in “a” god – as long as you are spiritually minded? Is Allah okay? What about the gods of the Hindu religion – Annapurra, Ganesha, Maya, Balrama, Garuda, and Ram? What about Buddhism? Is Buddha your god? Maybe you are a Jehovah Witness and you believe that Jesus was a prophet and a good man- even the Son of God, but not actually God. What about the Jews. They believe in God the Father, but don’t believe that Jesus is the promised Messiah. You may be one of many people who do not worship any god, and feel that you don’t need a god to depend on. Do all these different beliefs lead to eternity in heaven?

The apostle Paul wrote by inspiration about the “unknown” God. He was speaking to the people of Athens who had many gods in the form of man-made idols.

This is what he told them:

Men of Athens! I see that in every way you are very religious. For as I walked around and looked carefully at your objects of worship, I even found an altar with this inscription: to an unknown god. Now what you worship as something unknown I am going to proclaim to you. The God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of heaven and earth and does not live in temples built by hands. And he is not served by human hands, as if he needed anything, because he himself gives all men life and breath and everything else. From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth. And he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live. God did this so that men would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us. For in him we live and move and have our being. As some of your own poets have said, We are his offspring. Therefore since we are God’s offspring, we should not think that the divine being is like gold or silver or stone–an image made by man’s design and skill. In the past God overlooked such ignorance, but now he commands all people everywhere to repent. For he has set a day when he will judge the world with justice by the man he has appointed. He has given proof of this to all men by raising him from the dead. ( Acts 17: 22-31)

The “unknown God” is not unknown to us of the 21st century. We have His written Word which tells us who He is and it tells us which road leads to heaven. The only road to heaven is through Jesus. These words spoken by Jesus to His disciples were for us of the 21st century also; I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. (John 14:6)

If you are worshiping any god other than the true God – The God who made the world and everything in it, you are going the wrong way on a one-way street. The road you are on will not take you to eternity in heaven. The road to heaven is not always easy. The path is often steep and rugged and difficult to climb, but Jesus promises to be with us. He promises that if we persevere to the end we will win the prize. I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus (Philippians 3:20).

God wants all people to find eternal life. He extends His never-ending grace to everyone. Don’t be fooled by people who say it doesn’t matter what you believe or who you believe in. Jesus is the only way to eternal life. Come to Him. His arms are open. He is standing at the gate ready to let you in. Come!

Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life and only a few find it (Matthew 7:13, 14).

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The Message of the Cross

Tears for Jesus by Alexis Pocza

For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God. (1 Corinthians 1:21)

Before I even begin this writing, I would like to quote myself. In my profile on the hubpages (www.kristeen@hubpages.com) and also here on my Word Press blog I state; I love God and my wish is for everyone I meet to know Him and to know the freedom from sin and death, and the joy that abounds through faith in Jesus. I do not speak these words lightly. I truly feel sad for those who don’t know Jesus because they are missing so much and they have no hope – nothing to look forward to but death. With these words in mind I write this message.

Jesus tells us in His word that as His followers, we will face criticism, ridicule and persecution at times. He says; Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you. (Matthew 5:11)

I have written several controversial hubs on the hubpages and on my blog. The two which seem to have inspired the most controversy are What does it mean to be a Christian? and The Truth about Hell. In general, my hubs inspire positive comments and feedback, but in the comments of these two posts there are definite negative comments, some of which I have not allowed to be visible. I have also posted my own comments at different times to those who either don’t know the truth from Scripture, or choose to disregard it for the sake of their lifestyle. The truth is very difficult for people to accept at times.

As Christians we, out of love for Christ and all He has done for us, will do our best to love and forgive others. We will accept the fact that we ourselves are sinners and need God’s forgiveness. We will work to build people up rather than tear them down. We will gladly use our blessings and gifts to help those less fortunate than ourselves. Most importantly, we will speak the truth in love, not with criticism. These things being said, I would like to discuss some of the things Christians are accused of.

These accusations are pointed not only at me, but at all who profess to be followers of Christ. Keep in mind, as stated in the above paragraph, that we are all sinners. Often people who profess to be Christians are not true followers of Christ. These people cause others to look at Christians in a bad light. As Christians, Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died…Therefore if anyone is in Christ he is a new creation, the old has gone, the new has come.(2 Corinthians 5: 14,17) We are to be a light to the dark world of sin that surrounds us.

“Eternity is forever” – When I stated that eternity is forever to a person who was rejecting God, I was asked if I was referring to, or saying that this person was going to hell.
     • My Response – Only God can judge what is in a person’s heart, but she had just flat out rejected God. If she truly does not believe in Jesus as her Savior from sin, then she is destined for hell. John 3:36 tells us; Whoever believes in the Son has eternal life, but whoever rejects the Son will not see life, for God’s wrath remains on him. John is very clearly telling us that if we don’t believe we are lost. Our sins convict us to Hell. 

A Veiled Threat – I was told that my statement, eternity is forever is a veiled threat of hellfire (the passive aggressive method that is so favored by Christians to make their points).
     • My Response – It is not a threat from me, but a threat from God. Hell is a horrible and devastating choice, but at the same time it is just that – a choice. No one is forced to choose hell. Jesus died for all people, but those who do not believe and choose to reject Jesus as their Savior from sin will go to Hell.

Christian Belief is a trapChristian belief is a trap – that is very difficult to get free of.
     • My Response – It is not Christianity that traps people. Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the TRAP of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will. (2Timothy 2:25, 26) It is Satan who makes people feel trapped. Belief in Christ and faith in Him means FREEDOM from sin and death.

Christians are Misleading Ego Maniacs
     • My Response – Anyone who is an Ego Maniac is not truly a Christian. Those who mislead others into false beliefs are the false prophets Jesus warns about in Matthew 7:15 where He says; Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves. I genuinely love the Lord and wish for others to feel the same joy I feel in knowing Him, and to experience freedom from the weight of sin that drags people down.

I am a member of the WELS (Wisconsin Evangelical Lutheran Synod). The WELS does not deviate from the truth of scripture in any way. I can’t speak for other church bodies, but as a WELS member I am confident that my faith is based on the truth of God’s word.

Christians are Unloving
     • My Response – Christians are sinners too. All people, Christians and non Christians alike are guilty of being unloving at times. We are all sinners. To love God is to Love others. If a true Christian has treated you or someone you know in an unloving way, they are in the wrong and need to come to the foot of the cross, and kneel in repentance.The need to go to God in prayer and confess their sin and ask His pardon. Then they need to go to the person they wronged and apologize and ask their forgiveness.

Extremely Delusional They expect people to believe nonsense.
     • My ResponseThe man without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him, and he cannot understand them, because they are spiritually discerned. (1 Corinthians 2:14) In other words, only by faith from the Holy Spirit are we able to understand the things of God, and even then there are things about God which we do not understand, but accept and believe by faith. We receive that faith through the Word. Consequently, faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word of Christ. (Romans 10:17)

So, to those of you who think Christians believe in delusional nonsense, pick up a Bible and begin reading. Give the Holy Spirit a chance to work in your heart. The NIV is an easy version of the Bible to understand. I suggest you begin reading in the Gospels – Matthew, Mark, Luke or John.

Slanderers Christians subject people to all kinds of slander, character assassinations and ridicule just because they refuse to accept nonsense as sense.
     • My Response – As Christians we are to speak the truth in love as stated in Ephesians 4:15,16 ; Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will in all things grow up into him who is the Head, that is Christ. From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work.

Subjecting others to slander, character assassinations and ridicule is a part of the sinful nature that all people have inherited from Adam and Eve. It is wrong and it is a sin. It is done not only by Christians, but by people of all beliefs. As Christians however we need to set an example to others of love rather than hatred.

Jesus warns Christians that as His followers we will get more than our share of ridicule, slander and persecution in Matthew 5: 11 as stated above. He then goes on to assure us that in the end our reward will be great.

So, Atheists, Agnostics, Catholics, Lutherans, Baptists, Methodists, Presbyterians, believers, unbelievers etc. – be prepared to take slander and ridicule sometimes. It will happen no matter what you believe, because we are all sinners.

Very AggressiveThe Christians on the forums (Hubpages.com) are very aggressive…The Ku Klux Klan was a result of fragmentation and they consider themselves Christians.
     • My Response – The Ku Klux Klan may consider themselves Christians, however that does not mean they are. As a Christian and follower of Christ I would completely disassociate myself from them. They do not fit the profile of a Christian and follower of Christ as stated by Paul in 2 Corinthians 5:14 & 17 above.

The Bible is plagiarized off previous mythology Egyptian, Greek etc… All the ideas were based on astrology and mythology. There is not a scrap of evidence that any key Bible characters (including Jesus) actually existed.
     • My Response – The Bible does coincide with History. Separate the word “History” into two parts and you get “His Story” The Bible is the story of God and the events in the Bible do coincide with the History books.

Religion is just another AddictionYou can get addicted to anything that rings your bell and religion does that for a lot of folks.
       • My Response – Religion may be a man made addiction, but faith is an addiction from God. It is a wonderful addiction which can only result in good for those who believe. Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, and now that you have tasted that the Lord is good. (1 Peter 2:2)

Christians are blinded by their beliefs Extreme religious people can be so delusional and blinded by their beliefs that they abuse the people they are supposed to love.
     • My Response – The religious extremists, as extremists of any organization, are not a good representation of true Christians who love the Lord. They are misguided by humanly contrived doctrine and they are focused on themselves.
HypocritesChristians are hypocrites
     • My Response – Yes, some people who profess to be Christians are hypocrites. Jesus offered this warning to the hypocrites of His day; Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You travel over land and sea to win a single convert, and when he becomes one, you make him twice as much a son of hell as you are…And so upon you will come all the righteous blood that has been shed on earth, from the blood of righteous Abel to the blood of Zechariah son of Berekiah, whom you murdered between the temple and the altar. (Matthew 23: 15 & 35) Those who are hypocrites will get their punishment from God in due time.

Belief in a two-faced God who cries while he fries The point behind this statement is; How can a loving God damn the people He created to hell?
     • My Response – We are given choices in this life. God did not make us robots to do His bidding. He wants us to serve Him out of love and gratitude for all He has done for us. The people of the O.T. whom God destroyed were evil and did despicable things. God had been truly good to them, but they rejected Him. They worshiped idols and even sacrificed their own children in the fire to the god of Molech. They built high places for Baal in the Valley of Ben Hinnom to sacrifice their sons and daughters to Molech, though I never commanded , nor did it enter my mind, that they should do such a detestable thing and so make Judah sin. (Jeremiah 32:35)

Science and the Bible don’t match up
     • My Response – Science and the Bible do match up. Read my hub The Signature of God.

Christian Belief is Fear Doctrine
     • My Response – Those who love the Lord and believe in Jesus as their Savior from sin have nothing to fear from the devil or hell. They are protected in Jesus.

I have stated before that I will not argue Christianity with anyone. Either we believe, or we don’t. I just want all to know that my heart truly does bleed for those who don’t believe because they are missing out on wonderful blessings which will affect them both for time and for eternity.

No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him. (1 Corinthians 2:9) We certainly have nothing to lose and so much to gain by loving God rather than hating and rejecting Him.

Gloria Dei! (All Glory to God)

by Christine